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Another Monday morning, another wet rainy day! Oh Joy, oh but my joy is not found in weather or not the sun shines.  Yes I do know this, but once again my joy seems to hang on the balance of the  weather.  I guess what I mean is happiness.  For Joy is a different thing than being happy.  How can we be happy in a world that is so problematic? I would say when we are young there is more of a possibility of happiness, but that is only because we have this ignorant understanding of the rest of the world.  Age seems to take away more of the happiness over time.  I wonder if that is true of getting older in general?

I think time is an interesting thing, and the idea that we are bound by time.  When we are young it feels as if we are timeless, at least that is how it felt to me.  When we are young time passes slowly.  I think everyone would say this most of the time.  Now that I am 41 time passes so fast, and I no longer feel timeless. Instead I feel more bound by time.  Actually instead, I think that when we hit, (for me 41) a certain age our luming death is more visible, and that is why we feel more bound by time.

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